Transvestia

Achieve. I was also able to practice walking with steps daintier than my normal ones in the high heels and was soon at home in them, and loving the lift they seemed to give.

Now that I had a complete wardrobe, I took to ven- turing forth on short walks, always at night, keeping to the shady side of the street and away from street lights. I found quite a thrill in the tap of my high heels on the sidewalk and the rustle of silks and taffeta against my legs. There was also the element of danger if I should be discovered which added extra spice to the excursion, and on more than one occasion I risked discovery by visiting the corner drug store to make a small purchase of cigaretts or lipstick, and got away without comment, which convinced me that I could pass as a girl if I did not have to talk too much. My transvestism reached a peak at this time, and I dearly wished that I could mingle with real girls and be accepted as one of them for I en- joyed this secret feminine personality that I was letting come to the surface. I had no desire to seek out men when dressed in feminine costume and no latent homo- sexuality became evident at any time.

After completing college, and becoming established in a position, I finally became engaged and married. I underwent a complete purge before marriage, getting rid of all my feminine things. I did not dare tell my wife of my secret interests, and firmly resolved to forget these tastes so that for years I led a perfectly normal married life. I think in the early days of marriage I was able to sublimate my yearnings by buying feminine frip- peries and lingerie for my wife, and enjoyed seeing her wearing them. The urge never entirely left me though and I would occasionally wonder how I would look in some of her things.

Gradually I slipped back into the habit of trying on lingerie and stockings when she was out of the house, and then staeted acquiring my own feminine apparel again, so that now after more than ten years of marriage I am a fully fledged "Femme" again, and I must admit still savouring the delights of cross-dressing.

When one reaches the forties after some years of

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